Sentiments of a bestfriend

In this lifetime, I honestly had great friends around me. Loads  of people in which I’ve learned to love more than myself. I had friends from Elementary days which I still connect with. My high school friends that will forever be in my heart. And I mean all 36 of them. (i ♥ SIMONIANS)  And I also have great friends in College as well. my Whole section to be exact  (Section 3&4 ORIG batch ’09 ) My Trese Tribe and most especially, my  CINCO TRESE♥.

And with any typical group of friends, We all have our own favorite persons. In which we label them with names such as; bestfriend, ate, kuya, bunso,  unnie, dad, bata, bakla, love,  best q, mhal or in whatever way you wanna call them.  =)

BTW this is all about my Bestfriend number 2.. (from my high school days. I actually have two guy best friends c: ) I’m still wondering if I should still be calling him my best friend or not though.. ;p

“In Life, Nothings really permanent but CHANGE.”

…and they say that People does come and go, but the truth is.. No one really disappears from your life. People never really leave, their roles just change.

I can’t understand why things have to go this way. I thought we’re okay, well I guess I am. until I came to realize that in a relationship (friendship).  the persons involved in such should play their roles to keep that certain bond. I did my part, well I’m actually waiting for his response.

I guess what’s really wrong with me is that I always expect too much from people who doesn’t usually give. Sad? yes. But I really tend to be like this. I’m sorry for acting this way.

Have you guys ever been treated like you’re really “SOMEONE” in their life? the feeling that you really matter to them? I actually kinda  love that feeling when a friend introduces me as their “bestfriend”.  I tend to play the role of one. And I also had this saying in my head that says  ”once a friend always a friend.”

You see..we’ve always been good friends since high school, though we seldom hang out. But whenever he needs a hand. I try my best to be there for him and help him out. And even after we graduated from high school, we still kept the connection through our cellphones and with some social networking websites. Which actually worked since they moved to another Asian country to pursue their career.

It’s all been cool for a while since we’ve been too preoccupied in college that we didn’t have the time to say hi to each other, but when we get the chance that we’re both online we do check if one is okay or not..I could still remember how he used to respond when asked if he’s doing fine..he would usually say “okay lang“.  (gaah.. i miss him :’c)

..As the years passed we haven’t had any proper conversation and that we’ve put too much attention to both work and school and the other people around us like classmates, workmates and such.

But whenever he get’s the chance to go back here in RP. He would usually send me a message or so that he’ll be back and that we should have a get together soon. And with those words, I could still feel the “bestfriend vibe”. That our relationship as bestfriends is still there.

But then, As I’ve said earlier..Nothing is permanent in this Life but CHANGE.

Well I guess we’ve just grown up a bit. I just got too pissed off with his excuses and empty words in his big-empty-promises. In which I actually expected too much from. (my bad) That’s why I’m having this feeling of letting go with the “bestfriend” term. I honestly don’t wanna hold on to such people who doesn’t care about others feelings anymore..  (i hate me)

But then something came up to me while in this very down moment..

…. that you learn to let things be..when you realize that what matters most is the PERSON and not the ISSUE.

Is the ISSUE really worth the breakage of a good friendship?

(.. was there a good friendship after all??)

..well I’m guessing NOT. I usually do defend him from others who are also getting pissed with his widely known “drawing” attitude. (gaaah.. I really don’t know what to do..)  and I’m also known with the “it’s-okay-as-long-as-he’s-happy-with-it” line. I don’t know if what I’m doing is still right.. Am I being too considerate to him? or is it okay If  sometimes I’d let some steam out and say that I’m really sick of his empty words?.. I used to be the understanding type of person, Especially when It comes to him. even from before, I used to treat him like he’s my younger brother. and I’d loved him that much…treating him like a baby. but hey! Things Change, so do people.. and I’ve got feelings too you know..

.. so, I’ve come up with a decision of treating him the same way he treats me. like for example, forgetting to greet him on his birthday on purpose.. and not talking. I’ll barely be there for him.. Unless my baby brother needs me that badly..I’ll surely be just right here for him..I  mean, I can’t totally abandon a friend in need.. can’t I?..

“No matter how PAINFUL and stupid your decision has been, As long as you can stand the consequences..It means that you made the right choice.”

But for the mean time.. I’ll let him feel that what he’s done is not okay with me anymore. Eventhough, that could mean the end to our so called bestfriend titles.. If this is for the betterment of the Universe, then, I guess It should just be fine.. (universe?!ahahaha)

And the Key:

Friends are one of the best things in life, You have to give the BEST and do the right thing… but the best way to an everlasting friendship comes from 3 words…

…..KEEP IN TOUCH.

P.S

I know I promised a happy topic after my last Blog. but then I didn’t get the inspiration to write a happy one due to some circumstances that led me to write this one out. ~gomen ne minna~ (everyone, sorry).