and Well, yeah! today is indeed my 23rd birthday. and If there is such a thing as birthday blues.. well, you got it right! I’m definitely having one right now.

Honestly, I don’t know what’s gotten into me. I kinda feel empty inside, It feels lonely for some reasons I don’t exactly know.
Probable reasons maybe are as follows:

1. I’m back on having my bum life :’(
- Being unproductive on my birthday is no fun. (no allowance. boooo!) not to be able to see my hospital inspiration. the staff.. Sir RYTZ♥..

2. I’m on the low. :’(
- No income, no allowance, no nothing.. for short.. TELO.

3. My closest friends/GURLFRIENDS are away.
- Stephie’s on her work at Manila, Bhie Anne’s no where near me, and Joey’s somewhere we all don’t know.. (they are my greatest happiness ever!).

4. I got nothing to do. boooo!!!

5. … this ones not a big deal for me, but I guess it also has some huge effect at the moment.
~~> TELO on my ♥line.

In layman’s term: “Zero Love Life.”
Not even a single inspiration.aish…
well, excluding my k-world/j-world and anime world addiction that is.. I don’t have any..

I want to be happy!!I need cash!! LOL.. and fast! ahahahaha.. I need my friends… please..

It feels like I really wanna break away.

though It’s just a bit weird, coz. I had this same feeling before the result of NLE was released.
Well, I don’t want to put too much hope to it. coz I really hate disappointments. so I’ll just wait if ever something good will come.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!
Otanjoubi omedettou!
Saengil Chuk ha hamnida!!!!
Maligayang kaarawan dae♥

PEACE, LOVE, HAPPINESS AND SUCCESS TO ALL!!!♥

1st time to have my 2-10 duty on the 3rd floor..ALONE… yes.. I’ve said it right.. I was ALONE for the 1st duty of the year, without my buddy Kenneth..well, Thats life, and life must go on.. so my 2-10 shift went on smoothly, though toxic..had 3 patients that day. one admission na toxic. a medical pt and one pedia.

I learned more that day. left with 3 awesome guys as my seniors. and met up with my college friend Miel. t’was so much fun.

Sir. D was so gorgeous, he’s so tall and cute. and did I say cute? he’s hot! ahahaha.. and exactly my type!..LOL..
Sir. E was so nice and friendly, and smart and cute too. and another thing.. “ang bango nya!”.. super..aish..though I had colds that day..”ang bango padin nya!” and sweet.
and Lastly, there was Sir L. he’s awesome in so many ways, so gay and nice.. a batch mate from Perpetual.

Well, I had my 1st taste of toxicity at 3rd floor but it was all cool since my seniors are so great!.. and It’s also cool when Sir D and I transferred my toxic patient to the 4th floor. and there I was, climbing the stairs with Sir D. talking.. aish.. it was like a dream..then I saw my previous seniors having their duty. Sir Ochie, Sir RL, Ma’am Shai and Sir Rytz♥. I missed them so much! Sir Rytz even asked me if I’m still gonna have my duty that day with them.. but then I said no and that I’m at the 3rd floor now.. It was a bit sad because Iwanna still have my duty there with them. I wanna go back to the 4th floor!!!

I kinda liked the toxicity at 3rd floor, but My ♥ is definitely with sir R.. este sa 4th floor pla ♥

peace and LOVE♥

2.) I don’t fall for people because of their good Physique.
- I’m really fond of ugly people. LOL.. Joke.
What I mean is that I don’t look at people’s physical appearance, It’s still the heart that matters ne?.. Substance!! :3

3.) I’m no longer In Love with my best friend :3
- I guess I’m just stuck with the idea that I’m still in love with him for a long time now that’s why I still feel so attached. (Like the way Ayu feels towards Mayama @ Honey and Clover )It’s just the attachment and the idea that I was once in love with him. :3

4.) He is so not a good choice!!
- OUT OF THE LIST~ (will not name him since It’ll be so rude ♥ :3)

… will add more in the near future..

must..
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.. have…
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sleep…
\O_o/

~ ja ne~ (waves)

Today, January 02, 2011 is a happy day. Well, not so great but quite fun. Lot’s of crazy stuff and realizations came to me.

We had a group date, I went out with my long time friends; High school friends that is. which comprises of my best friend, Mr. Reidell Christian Roasa. and one of my best gurlfriends ever! Ms. Stephanie Aguillon. and a ‘lil bit of Still.

Our day started out when I woke up beside my gurlfriend Stephie @7am called up my best friend to check on him if he’s ready. Prepared ourselves for our first day out for the year 2011. We we’re all fixed up before 8am since we planned to meet up with Edz outside our Subdivision @8am in front of 7’11 . then, time passed too fast when we we’re just having breakfast with my mom. when we realized it was too late, It’s 5mins after 9am already.. (OMO!! O_o?? my best friend is so gonna kill me..yikes!) Then I called him up to tell him that we we’re just on our way and that something just came up. then after that.. we went to Sta. Rosa @ Stephie’s place to get her stuff then arrived at Estrella @11am, met up with ate Jessa (Stephie’s older sister). then some talk and then we’re off to transfer Stephie’s Stuff to her new apartment. Just beside the later. then off we go again to EDSA.. we went malling at Mega mall where we ate Lunch @ karate kid. I missed eating Beef Gyudon so I went for it..(YUM!) then just went around. walked through EDSA Shangrila.. took some photos then off to MOA.. watched TRON on iMAX with Vicky Belo, her son Quirk Henares with their friends and Hayden Kho. well, we’re not together with them but, they were like sitting in front of us, so yeah, we watched TRON together!..

then we went home and called it a day.. I got tired from all the drama about us being able to make it through a day with dealing with Still.. and yes! we made it.. I still managed to smile even though I was really fed up with her, I even asked myself Why am I still friends with her??.. well, as Phie would say… “That’s Life!”

and about the realizations?? I have LOT’S!!

It was really nice that my bestfriend And I could talk about love matters now.. and talk freely about stuff that we’re not used to talking about.. I suppose we’re matured now and that we do trust each other more than before.. It was fun..really, though most of the time it was all meant to be a joke. but then again You’ll know when it’s serious and not. I’d love to share about it.. but I guess I can’t do it now. maybe on my next post.. will do my best to write and share it all down here

HAPPY NEW YEAR GUYS!!!♥

ALL SMILES AND PURE LOVE FOR 2011!!!

HAPPINESS, MORE BLESSINGS AND SUCCESS!!!♥

Anyhoo, My mom and I are from very different worlds, I mean yeah, maybe there is no such thing as a perfect-mom-and-daughter-relationship. But mom and I knows way better than that..

Just from simple stuff we argue like hell, and that there could never be a day that we wont get in an argument. (well, except when I was away from home for a good two months due to my NLE review **those were the days**)

Maybe our differences in our point of views and beliefs in life would be a huge component in our everyday cat fights and also our few similarities would pay a good role too..

here are some examples that I could really go on and on forever..

> My mom loves Gossip; dA3 hates it.

> Mom talks like there’s no tomorrow; dA3 hates it when people talk non-stop.

> My Mom loves Pink; dA3 hates pink.

> My mom is a Type 2 Diabetic; dA3 is a Nurse. <makes perfect sense XD>

> Mom is hardworking; dA3 is one lazy bastard.

> My mom Loves to dictate stuff you already know; dA3 hates it when people tell her what to do. (sometimes I even think about how my mom could be a better dictator than Marcos O_o?!)

dA3′s P.O.V: <I’ll ask if I don’t know how to do it mom. sorry>

> My mom simply loves to irritate me ; I am a very irritable person at home.

(example:  <I really hate it when the bedroom door is left open, mom would usually leave it slightly opened after going in or going out the room.> rawr..)

> Mom knows a lot; dA3 knows better..** gets bricked** evil grin**

>.. at times, My mom is a perfectionist; I AM PERFECT **lol** (actually in my mom’s P.O.V my brother is.)

…My Aiyah is the best person on Earth & I am the worst  daughter EVER! It’s like having Angels and Demons as children. =|

And our only Similarity..

> WE BOTH HATE LOSING TO ARGUMENTS..

… So in the end , We start to not talk to each other. (and then hold a grudge afterwards.**ROFL**)

CONCLUSION:

> We just couldn’t agree ♥

. . . And yes! welcome to my life

And with any typical group of friends, We all have our own favorite persons. In which we label them with names such as; bestfriend, ate, kuya, bunso,  unnie, dad, bata, bakla, love,  best q, mhal or in whatever way you wanna call them.  =)

BTW this is all about my Bestfriend number 2.. (from my high school days. I actually have two guy best friends c: ) I’m still wondering if I should still be calling him my best friend or not though.. ;p

“In Life, Nothings really permanent but CHANGE.”

…and they say that People does come and go, but the truth is.. No one really disappears from your life. People never really leave, their roles just change.

I can’t understand why things have to go this way. I thought we’re okay, well I guess I am. until I came to realize that in a relationship (friendship).  the persons involved in such should play their roles to keep that certain bond. I did my part, well I’m actually waiting for his response.

I guess what’s really wrong with me is that I always expect too much from people who doesn’t usually give. Sad? yes. But I really tend to be like this. I’m sorry for acting this way.

Have you guys ever been treated like you’re really “SOMEONE” in their life? the feeling that you really matter to them? I actually kinda  love that feeling when a friend introduces me as their “bestfriend”.  I tend to play the role of one. And I also had this saying in my head that says  ”once a friend always a friend.”

You see..we’ve always been good friends since high school, though we seldom hang out. But whenever he needs a hand. I try my best to be there for him and help him out. And even after we graduated from high school, we still kept the connection through our cellphones and with some social networking websites. Which actually worked since they moved to another Asian country to pursue their career.

It’s all been cool for a while since we’ve been too preoccupied in college that we didn’t have the time to say hi to each other, but when we get the chance that we’re both online we do check if one is okay or not..I could still remember how he used to respond when asked if he’s doing fine..he would usually say “okay lang“.  (gaah.. i miss him :’c)

..As the years passed we haven’t had any proper conversation and that we’ve put too much attention to both work and school and the other people around us like classmates, workmates and such.

But whenever he get’s the chance to go back here in RP. He would usually send me a message or so that he’ll be back and that we should have a get together soon. And with those words, I could still feel the “bestfriend vibe”. That our relationship as bestfriends is still there.

But then, As I’ve said earlier..Nothing is permanent in this Life but CHANGE.

Well I guess we’ve just grown up a bit. I just got too pissed off with his excuses and empty words in his big-empty-promises. In which I actually expected too much from. (my bad) That’s why I’m having this feeling of letting go with the “bestfriend” term. I honestly don’t wanna hold on to such people who doesn’t care about others feelings anymore..  (i hate me)

But then something came up to me while in this very down moment..

…. that you learn to let things be..when you realize that what matters most is the PERSON and not the ISSUE.

Is the ISSUE really worth the breakage of a good friendship?

(.. was there a good friendship after all??)

..well I’m guessing NOT. I usually do defend him from others who are also getting pissed with his widely known “drawing” attitude. (gaaah.. I really don’t know what to do..)  and I’m also known with the “it’s-okay-as-long-as-he’s-happy-with-it” line. I don’t know if what I’m doing is still right.. Am I being too considerate to him? or is it okay If  sometimes I’d let some steam out and say that I’m really sick of his empty words?.. I used to be the understanding type of person, Especially when It comes to him. even from before, I used to treat him like he’s my younger brother. and I’d loved him that much…treating him like a baby. but hey! Things Change, so do people.. and I’ve got feelings too you know..

.. so, I’ve come up with a decision of treating him the same way he treats me. like for example, forgetting to greet him on his birthday on purpose.. and not talking. I’ll barely be there for him.. Unless my baby brother needs me that badly..I’ll surely be just right here for him..I  mean, I can’t totally abandon a friend in need.. can’t I?..

“No matter how PAINFUL and stupid your decision has been, As long as you can stand the consequences..It means that you made the right choice.”

But for the mean time.. I’ll let him feel that what he’s done is not okay with me anymore. Eventhough, that could mean the end to our so called bestfriend titles.. If this is for the betterment of the Universe, then, I guess It should just be fine.. (universe?!ahahaha)

And the Key:

Friends are one of the best things in life, You have to give the BEST and do the right thing… but the best way to an everlasting friendship comes from 3 words…

…..KEEP IN TOUCH.

P.S

I know I promised a happy topic after my last Blog. but then I didn’t get the inspiration to write a happy one due to some circumstances that led me to write this one out. ~gomen ne minna~ (everyone, sorry).

This topic is not a good comeback blog for me. but I guess It takes  a good inspiration to make a good topic right?

.. to be honest, I’m not that inspired to write a blog.  And I’m not in pain at the moment either..

but for the mean time I think this topic would do.

so now.. here are the 11 painful Things that bitter people should avoid. (bwahahaha) Or for some people out there who wants to move on..♥

1. Bringing back the feeling you’ve learned to forget.-

C’mon people,  Stop torturing yourselves.  you’ve already learned how to forget it. so why bring it back?. I know it’s hard to move on, ‘coz I’ve once been there, done that. so give yourself a little respect and put some little love into it.  inhale, exhale. look forward to the future and keep moving forward. Ü

2. Reminiscing the good times.-

It’s not that bad to remember some good old memories with your past love. Just don’t overdo it. It could sometimes lead to tears and the dreadful feeling of regret. so for some peace loving moments and relaxation purposes, I guess this would just be fine.

3. Trying to hide what you really feel.-

Hiding your emotions would just define how weak your self- esteem is and how high your ego has become. Ü (easy to say but very hard to put into action ne dae?) you should sometimes try to open up a bit and let some steam out.

4. Loving someone who loves another.-

Aww.. That’s all.

….  ahahaha.. kidding aside,  Come on people..This is just Plain Torture.  yeah,  I know,  sometimes these things come inevitably. but because that’s how stupid Love is.  We should all realize that Things do happen for a reason. Maybe that someone is not meant for us. or It’s not yet the right time to fall in love. (ouchies)

5. Forcing yourself to let go when you still want to hold on.-

Now this is something that’s really bothering.. isn’t it? hmm.. how to deal with this..I guess the heart does go tired sometimes.. when loving too much hurts and Letting go becomes the best option. Try to estimate yourself If you could still carry on. and If you do. Goodluck.  If you don’t.  repeat after me **move on**. Ü

6. Shielding your heart to love somebody.-

Why? afraid to love? to get rejected? Well, you know what sweetie? It’s all part of the game called love. Everything doesn’t always go our way anyways,  so learn how to play it. Sometimes a little boo-boo makes us a stronger person..so don’t be afraid to get hurt. It’s part of life. and you’ll learn that in the end.. sometimes it takes a lot of guts to take some risk .but then what you get out of it might resolve to something better. That sometimes, It’s all worth the risks. so just take it nice and slow..

7. Loving a person too much.-

Now this is something stupid. Save some for yourself honey, don’t let too much love get the better of you. sometimes it pays to save some love for yourself. Because good things never seem to last that long. Most especially if your still  young and in Love. Loving a person gives us the opportunity to learn how life goes, To know how Love really works, we then learn how to take risks and get hurt but it’s all part of the process. But the most important thing of all is that we should all learn how to love ourselves first and to put  God before anything else.

8. Right love at the wrong time.-

Maybe you’re just too young to fall in love that deep or the situation doesn’t allow you love birds to get all lovey-dovey at the moment because of some circumstances that life offers. Like when Parents doesn’t want you to be in a relationship at first, or when you’ve fallen in love with somebody who is already committed. or when you’re still with the wrong guy when the best one out there already found you while you haven’t realize it just yet.(Life sucks isn’t it?) well, what I could only share about this one is that TRUE LOVE WAITS. and when the right time comes, there’ll surely be one person out there that God saved for you. Ü so cheer up and live your life to the fullest of your ability!.

9. Taking risk to fall in love again-

They say that the best way to heal a broken heart is to help yourself to fall in love again. I say that could be right. and It might help you with the healing process, But then again, this might not be the best remedy for some. maybe they are not such risk takers or maybe they are just too traumatized with the situation they’ve been through before, that’s why they don’t want to fall in love for now. Love takes time guys, don’t force yourself too much. There will come a time that True Love will come and you’ll be happy with the results.

10. Accepting that it was never meant to be.-

Acceptance is the main key to a brighter future. I mean an upright attitude which accepts the fact of life that nothing is really permanent in this world but change. And that some good things never really seem to last,  having this kind of thinking is one way to accept things as they are. Just keep up with the positive attitude and see where it’ll take you. Ü

11. The “what ifs.”—

This comes after the time when you think about all the regrets after the relationship has ended. and I assure you, this will be one heck of a time. you’ll just be reminded of everything you’ve been through, all the things you’ve done for that person which has gone to waste.  The effort you’ve given. The moments you’ve shared together. and I might share with you people. This is one bad time you shouldn’t have wasted your life into. so don’t splurge yourself  of too much whining. It’ll just give you the worst headache. move on. It’s not the end of the World is it?..but then again, It’s not that bad to analyze the situation. It could sometimes help you recover easily. Ü

What is happiness??

According to my friend Mr. Wikipedia..

Happiness is a state of mind or feeling characterized by contentment, satisfaction, pleasure, or joy. A variety of philosophical, religious, psychological and biological approaches have striven to define happiness and identify its sources.

Philosophers and religious thinkers often define happiness in terms of living a good life, or flourishing, rather than simply as an emotion. Happiness in this older sense was used to translate the Greek Eudaimonia, and is still used in virtue ethics. In everyday speech today, however, terms such as well-being or quality of life are usually used to signify the classical meaning, and happiness usually refers to the felt experience or experiences that philosophers historically called pleasure.

-wikipedia

Thank’s to mr. Wiki… =)

Now…

what if I’d ask..

Is there such thing?

Can you fake happiness??

…..

..Those are just some stuff running through my head these days…

It’s just that at some point,  I come to think of happiness as a state of being content of what you have.  An expression of feeling when you fully accept things as they are and when you can’t ask for more.

In Faking happiness…

Maybe it’s when you pretend you’re happy, when in fact You’re NOT totally okay.

…I can understand why other people pretend to be happy. It’s just that maybe, they don’t want to bother those people around them. or that they don’t want to let others  see them sad or maybe, They just don’t want to be pitied.

I mean, man! It’s not easy faking.

So why freaking pretend to be happy if not for the sake of other people?…

…And “Ate dAe, what if real happiness doesn’t really exist?”

…That I’m not really sure honey, Maybe it does happen when people can’t appreciate the things they already have. or when they have lost somethng very precious to them that they lose their so-called “happiness”. and we can’t balme them for that.

… I guess that real happiness does exist though. It’s just that we don’t appreciate it by now. Because we’re all too busy looking out for it. But If we could just look right inside our hearts and learn how to appreciate the things that God has already gave us or blessed us with. We might find the things that we have been looking for. =)

…And for added fun..

here are 10 lovely tips on how to be happier…

+ credits to : my brother.. [found this on his file..dunno where he got this though..]

1. Don’t start with profundities.
When I began my Happiness Project, I realized pretty quickly that, rather than jumping in with lengthy daily meditation or answering deep questions of self-identity, I should start with the basics, like going to sleep at a decent hour and not letting myself get too hungry. Science backs this up; these two factors have a big impact on happiness. Learn how to Get a Good Night’s Sleep.

2. Do let the sun go down on anger.
I had always scrupulously aired every irritation as soon as possible, to make sure I vented all bad feelings before bedtime. Studies show, however, that the notion of anger catharsis is poppycock. Expressing anger related to minor, fleeting annoyances just amplifies bad feelings, while not expressing anger often allows it to dissipate.

3. Fake it till you feel it.
Feelings follow actions. If I’m feeling low, I deliberately act cheery, and I find myself actually feeling happier. If I’m feeling angry at someone, I do something thoughtful for her and my feelings toward her soften. This strategy is uncannily effective.

4. Realize that anything worth doing is worth doing badly.
Challenge and novelty are key elements of happiness. The brain is stimulated by surprise, and successfully dealing with an unexpected situation gives a powerful sense of satisfaction. People who do new things — learn a game, travel to unfamiliar places — are happier than people who stick to familiar activities that they already do well. I often remind myself to “Enjoy the fun of failure” and tackle some daunting goal.

5. Don’t treat the blues with a “treat.”
Often the things I choose as “treats” aren’t good for me. The pleasure lasts a minute, but then feelings of guilt and loss of control and other negative consequences deepen the lousiness of the day. While it’s easy to think, I’ll feel good after I have a few glasses of wine…a pint of ice cream…a cigarette…a new pair of jeans, it’s worth pausing to ask whether this will truly make things better.

6. Buy some happiness.
Our basic psychological needs include feeling loved, secure, and good at what we do and having a sense of control. Money doesn’t automatically fill these requirements, but it sure can help. I’ve learned to look for ways to spend money to stay in closer contact with my family and friends; to promote my health; to work more efficiently; to eliminate sources of irritation and marital conflict; to support important causes; and to have enlarging experiences.

7. Don’t insist on the best.
There are two types of decision makers. Satisficers (yes, satisficers) make a decision once their criteria are met. When they find the hotel or the pasta sauce that has the qualities they want, they’re satisfied. Maximizers want to make the best possible decision. Even if they see a bicycle or a backpack that meets their requirements, they can’t make a decision until they’ve examined every option. Satisficers tend to be happier than maximizers. Maximizers expend more time and energy reaching decisions, and they’re often anxious about their choices. Sometimes good enough is good enough.

8. Exercise to boost energy.
I knew, intellectually, that this worked, but how often have I told myself, “I’m just too tired to go to the gym”? Exercise is one of the most dependable mood-boosters. Even a 10-minute walk can brighten my outlook.
9. Stop nagging.
I knew my nagging wasn’t working particularly well, but I figured that if I stopped, my husband would never do a thing around the house. Wrong. If anything, more work got done. Plus, I got a surprisingly big happiness boost from quitting nagging. I hadn’t realized how shrewish and angry I had felt as a result of speaking like that. I replaced nagging with the following persuasive tools: wordless hints (for example, leaving a new lightbulb on the counter); using just one word (saying “Milk!” instead of talking on and on); not insisting that something be done on my schedule; and, most effective of all, doing a task myself. Why did I get to set the assignments?

10. Take action.
Some people assume happiness is mostly a matter of inborn temperament: You’re born an Eeyore or a Tigger, and that’s that. Although it’s true that genetics play a big role, about 40 percent of your happiness level is within your control. Taking time to reflect, and conscious steps to make your life happier, really does work. So use these tips to start your own Happiness Project. I promise it won’t take you a whole year.

-Thank’s!..[These stuff might come in handy..=)]

- Parang kayo pero hindi.. No commitments involved, you’re UNCERTAIN on your role to his/her life..

- You can’t expect him/her to be always there for you..

- You can’t demand, you can’t be jealous..

- “There is no “US”…meron lang “YOU AND ME”…”

- You can’t be sure of his/her feelings for you…

- And this will make you wonder where you are in the relationship…

OR…

…If there is a relationship at all.

But why do others still settle for this kind of relationship??

For FUN?
Kilig feeling??
..para lang may kasama habang wala pa ang “REAL THING”??

MAYBE…

but what if one gets cold?.. then that’s the END of EVERYTHING.

The relationship may not be TRUE but the PAIN is REAL…

You will be miserable, Hoping to bring back what you used to have…

dahil “PARANG KAYO PERO HINDI”…kaya hanggang dun na lang..

> POWER RELATIONSHIP

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AND YEAH! TAPOS NA NGA ANG POWER RELATIONSHIP..

sana madami akong natutunan..

**peace..**i’ll be back for this….
..and im back!.

about this Pseudo-relationship thingy..

it’s like so last season..

I could probably say that now because it’s over..

and that for sometime now, I can’t really think of a reason why I’d been to this kind of thing. I mean, yeah..mahirap nga nman yung ganitong kind of relationship.. and one of my favorite part is yung “..”There is no “US”…meron lang “YOU AND ME”.. which is always the main topic namin ng mga friends kuh during those times na I suppose I was still “IN” this kind of situation. I mean, yeah men!..there’s really no “US”, it’s just “YOU” and “ME”.. and yun ung isa sa pinaka masakit sa lahat.. na parang ang labas eh..you’re just a cover up..habang wala pa ang sinasabi nilang “THE REAL THING”.. And syempre..mas mahirap din pag ang isa sa inyo eh nahulog na sa ganitong type ng relationship.. na mahalin na nya yung isa..while the other person is just playing pa din.. meron din namang instance na parehong nandyan na yung ” real thing” pero they still settle for this kind of relationship “FOR FUN”.. ewan ba.. as for my experience kasi.. I suppose I “had” that so-called “REAL THING”..but I still managed to have this kind of relationship with one of my closest friend in College.. tama ba yun?? “PSEUDO-RELATIONSHIP” talaga noh??kasi naman..basta medyo mahirap syang i-explain in detail.. but in this kind of relationship kasi.. these two person might find theirselves havin’ fun hanging out with their supposed to be “someone special”..pero wla talagang commitment..kung baga..”no strings attached”..ayun..so wala ka talagang pananagutan if ever.. di ka pwede magselos dahil “hindi naman kayo”..but, you can watch movies together, go to malls and hang-out,dine-out, play games together,  go to places together, go home together, sleep on each others shoulder, sweet effect, call names.. aun.. hold hands (Oooopps…accepted pa ba itoh??)..

haha..those last few comments are waay not accepted ah..sana naging kayo nalang kasi di ba?? for all we know eh malamang you’re already exchanging sweet notings nadin naman, na magsisimula sa simple sweet quotes na may excuse na naka group message sya, then after nyo mag “date”.. na may excuse pang “friendly date” yun..(Girl.. FYI.. Im SO NOT born yesterday..) that “friendly” date is STILL a date!..okay?..eh mag papalitan na ulit kayo ng messages na parang hindi kayo magkasama a while ago.. right?? Sinong nakakarelate?? (raise your voice..hahaha).. ang cheesy ng mga pinag gagawa nyo.. but either way, kung hindi chessy ang ma inlove eh panu pa kea xa mag wowork??.. Im really wonderin’ If may Love story na hindi mo masasabing Chessy..katulad nalang nung kanina na narining namin ng mga friends kuh habang nakatambay.. may dumaan kasi na motor with two boys and a girl in the middle na pinagtawanan pa namin dahil according to my “crazy” friends eh.. natuhog daw si ate…hahaha.. with matching lines pa nila na…

girl(si ateng natuhog daw): “mahalaga ba ako sa’yo??”

boy (si kuyang ngddrive ng motor): “kung hindi ka mahalaga eh di…..**bitin”..

then pag lampas nila eh..pinag fiestahan na namin ang mga lines na narinig namin..”mahalaga ba ako sa’yo?”..chessy pero okay sana yung tanong na yun kung in love ka na at hindi ka sure kung ano ka talaga sa taong minahal mo na..applicable xa sa pseudo-relationship noh?..ang galing tlga.. akalain mo?? naku talaga.. I can’t really think of anything na ikagaganda ng relationship na ito.. In a way kasi..masaya sya dahil hindi ka commited sa taong kasama mo while at the same time eh..you’re having the time of your life.. no strings attached.. nagiging masama lang sya pag natutunan mo ng mahalin yung taong kasama mo.. at dun nag sstart yung pagiging unhealthy ng ganitong klase ng relationship.. talo pag pareho kayong torpe.. yun bang sweet-sweetan padin kayo..exchanges ng “I LOVE YOU” thru text..eventhough you don’t really mean that…sabay pa kayo papasok, may sarili pa akyong schedule ng lakad nyo, dress code, you call them up when you miss them, at bonggang palitan ng ka-sweetan sa text as if you really mean what you say to that person…haix..

ano na nga ba ang mangyayari sa ganitong klase ng samahan?..nagiging sobrang unhealthy sa friendship..lalo na kung friends kayo at first di ba?.. naku guys..

guys, All I know is that LOVE is a kind of thing that you should’nt play with.. mahirap pag nahulog ka..at hindi ka sure kung may sasalo sa’yo .. kasi hindi naman talaga sya totoong relationship di ba?..based from my experience..hindi xa masyadong maganda..but you’ll learn by the process naman, mahirap ng magsalita eh.. nahirapan akuh dito at medyo naloka..but still, I LEARNED..yun naman yung mahalaga di ba?..WE LEARN FROM OUR PAST EXPERIENCE.. para in the future..we become better persons.. sana lang talaga we learn something new.. kasi some people just go through these experiences without Learning from their mistakes and they tend to repeat the same thing all over again..and with that, they tend to hurt themselves more..and ang masama pa dun..hindi sila nag ggrow as a better individual…so.. mahirap talaga sya.. kaya naman.. tigilan na ang pagiging masyadong torpe and say how you feel to that special person, para malaman mo na kung dapat pa bang ituloy or tama na.. kasi for all I know, We all deserve to be happy with someone who deserves our time and effort..and LOVE nadin syempre.. ayun.. kaya stay happy guys.. pag basted..eh di Move on na lang..wla ka naman magagawa kung ayaw sa’yo nung tao di ba?.. oo masakit, pero ganun talaga ang buhay… at kaya nga nandyan ang mga tunay na friendships.. believe me or not, kaya sila binigay ni God satin eh may purpose yang mga yan.. kahit gaano pa sila kabaliw at kakaiba..still, sila padin ang makakatulong satin para makapag move on.. bukod sa sila makakasama mo sa pag iinom.. eh patatawanin ka ng mga yan kahit sobrang corny sila at feeling mo eh hindi sila makakatulong at mas pipiliin mo pang magkulong sa room muh at mag fetal positon sa pinaka corner ng room mo..

True friends will stick with you no matter how hard you drag them away from you…

mahal ka ng mga yan.. yun ang natutunan kuh..masaya madaming friends..but make sure meron jan na pupulutin ka in your worst..and im just so proud dahil meron akuh nyan..madami.. ang saya.. kaya tigilan na ang pseudo-relationship okay?? hang out with friends wag yung “friends with benefits”..gaga!..hahaha…kidding.. basta.. friendship is the best policy talaga… kung mahal mo isang tao..sabihin mo na..wag kang pa keme pa ever..di na yan uso..dahil in the end ikaw din kasi mahihirapan eh.. kaya go lang..keri yan.. pag di ka trip..move on ulit..cycle lng yan eh.. until you find someone who truly deserves you..

sabi nga dun sa isang fave blog kuh…

“you don’t look for love. you wait for it. and shit happens over and over again until the universe decides that you finally learned your lesson”..

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wula lang..pampahaba ng Blogisode na itoh yang song Lyrics..

mejo masaya na akuh ngaun and i can say that im improving…nyahahaha…

una:

ngayong araw na ito ay natupad ang isa sa matagal ko ng pangarap.. to finally ma- angkas kay Maverick ung special person kuh..haha..(ayan n nman akuh)

and yeah nagawa kuh na xa kanina…BEAT THAT! haha..kaya lang..kanina kuh lng din narealize na its too late..wala na talaga akong nararamdaman para sa kanya..which is a good thing..na ibig sabihin eh..im free!!! yay for me!! ang tagal kuh nadin naisip un na wala na talaga akong nffeel.. medjo nahihirapan lang akuh i convince ang sarili kuh na totoo un at pati nadin ang mga College friends kuh dahil ayaw talaga nilang maniwala na hindi kuh na xa mhal…bwahahaha..kala nyu guys ah!!hahaha…

pangalawa:

para naman dun sa taong reason para sa aking scandalous na bulletin na talaga namang bumenta eh..ayan..sana nga kung wala na akuh para sau at kung hindi muh naman me na mimish eh..shit ka!!hahaha juk..wala naman akong magagawa kung d m talaga akuh 3p db??stupid lang talaga akuh…as in..stupid talaga..

nga pla..ngtxt n xa..at mejo okay n akuh dun kahit nung nreplyan kuh xa eh niaway kuh pa xa..gnun nman tlga akuh eh..db??pxnxa nman..bwahahaha…

ang mga realizations sa buhay..talaga naman…

Thank’s for this Lovely day..kahit na hindi kuh na ulit pwede i-drive si Maverick dahil wala pa akong Driver’s License..eh naging masaya naman akuh dahil nga dun..at xmpre..dahil nakasama kuh ang best kuh at c Still knina at nakapag share kmi ng mga thoughts namin sa life and in a way natulungan nila akuh sa problem kuh..na aminin kuh na daw na na-fall na akuh dun sa taong un..ewan kuh sa kanya..at ewan kuh din sa dalawang un..mga adik! kaya mahal kuh sila eh..sobra!! subrang thankful akuh kay Lord at binigyan nya akuh ng mga baliw na friends na magpapasaya sakin kahit na may mga times na mejo Lonely..aun..masaya padin kaming 3!! at magttrabaho na kami para magka hamey at matuloy na kami sa mga laboy namin sa buhay..

and about falling for that someone..ewan kuh..d ako sure..sabi kuh daw dati accdg kna still at best q nag iinarte pa daw akuh..pero ang totoo..nahulog n nga yta tlaga akuh nun..kea lng ngaun..mejo okay na akuh at katulad nga ng sinabi kuh sa kanila kanina..nadala lang akuh sa biglaang bugso ng emosyon kuh, happy moments namin together, which is turned to my bittersweet memories with him na sana eh hanggang dun na lang tlga to prevent myself from falling. na nabigla lang akuh talaga kea nsabi kong na fall na nga akuh..at ngaun eh nandito akuh sa state na pag convince sa sarili kuh na hindi un totoo at hindi kuh talaga xa gusto..sana naman maniwala akuh..at sana makayanan kuh toh..i know i’ll get through..nakisabay lang akuh sa pagbuhos ng ulan..dahil hindi kami pwede…hindi talaga…excuse me…naku..adik talaga akuh..sana..

haix..auko na maulit ung dati..pero unconsciously eh nauuulit kuh lng ung dati kong ginagawa..sana this time maiba naman.. sna maging sila na nung gurl na gusto nya kamo..at sana talaga maging sila na para hindi na kami lalo pwde at para nadin tigilan na nya akuh..para mawalan na ng chance na umalis kami ulit at para everybody happy!!

haix…sana naman ligawan nya na yun ng seryoso para sagutin n sya at tigilan na akuh..haix..

at uu nga pala..tumatanggap na akuh ngaun ng mga bagong suitors…weeeetttt….sabi kuh bago..kea dun sa nagbabalak bumalik..ewan kuh sau..MOVE ON!!..hahaha..pero kung makulit ka talaga..goodluck!kaya muh yan..malay muh marealize kong mahal pala kita..eh di nice…hahaha..

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